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school bad - lots of handwringing
Jun. 27th, 2012 10:22 amInternship ended and finally, had the energy to check my results for summer class. B+ all the way.
I'm such a bad student; it's like however hard I work, I end up getting B+'s. Maybe getting a B is my superpower, haha. I suck at law. Getting a B means "good effort, but you just don't get it". Gah. Morale bad.
Now pondering electives for next term. Am enrolled in three compulsory units but allowed to take 1-2 electives:
1) Would take IP due to personal interest but exam dates are unfavourable (its final exam's on consecutive days with another compulsory unit's - I'd like at least a day between exams);
2) banking law is not bad but ugh banks, yet it's not like I've done a stellar job with topics that I do like rite, plus no exam, and... *checks school website again* looks like it's an accelerated course, as students would have double the class time but for only half a term (that explains the no exam part!) which oddly makes it attractive AND also I had had a somewhat masochistic streak for choosing classes that I am bad at (this explains two years of French as an undergrad) so why disrupt the habit of a lifetime?;
3) shipping and admiralty law, attractive but classses are on fucking Saturdays and I work on Saturdays dammit. And it's taught by THREE people: I dunno, is that a sensible way to teach a class? Wouldn't that end up being a bit disjointed?
4) Another option is International Commercial of IP, mouthful of a title, coverage rather wide which I am leery of, but does sound really fascinating - but again, sucky exam schedule.
At least none of those classes are in the evening, which was a bit of craziness last term. I hate evening classes. Am not a night person and brain becomes unreceptive after 7-ish. (Turns on again at 11pm for a bit of late night surfing but hey, that's totally different. Also leaving aside the fact that I work at night, because I hate working at night.)
Also, should I take one or two electives? Since I sort of suck as a student, maybe I should take it easy and enrol in only one. But then again, since it looks like no matter what I do, I get a B, it doesn't really matter - one elective, two electives, it's still a B. I mean, if I accept that I'm an academically average student, then I can just go for what I like and what I want to achieve (like finishing the required number of classes in good time instead of taking fewer classes and dragging things out in the hope of improving my GPA) and it would be... more expedient?
The ultimate point of this whole exercise, after all, is to get qualified and get a job. Or isn't it? Is this the kind of profession where people still talk about whether or not you got first-class honours and a 4.0 GPA years after you start working? Does your academic performance follow your career forever?
(And of course I'm operating on the scary assumption that even if my academics aren't super-great, I could still do the work decently.)
Or maybe I'm just indulging in a fit of, ah, self-indulgence and self-pity at the moment. Will calm down by knitting and DECIDE! by end of Friday. Also, note to self: pls do report on internship, also by this week. (Sneak preview: it was fun and boring in parts.) (Left on cutting-room floor: had a headache that lasted for about two weeks in that duration.) (Conclusion: hate my brain.)
I'm such a bad student; it's like however hard I work, I end up getting B+'s. Maybe getting a B is my superpower, haha. I suck at law. Getting a B means "good effort, but you just don't get it". Gah. Morale bad.
Now pondering electives for next term. Am enrolled in three compulsory units but allowed to take 1-2 electives:
1) Would take IP due to personal interest but exam dates are unfavourable (its final exam's on consecutive days with another compulsory unit's - I'd like at least a day between exams);
2) banking law is not bad but ugh banks, yet it's not like I've done a stellar job with topics that I do like rite, plus no exam, and... *checks school website again* looks like it's an accelerated course, as students would have double the class time but for only half a term (that explains the no exam part!) which oddly makes it attractive AND also I had had a somewhat masochistic streak for choosing classes that I am bad at (this explains two years of French as an undergrad) so why disrupt the habit of a lifetime?;
3) shipping and admiralty law, attractive but classses are on fucking Saturdays and I work on Saturdays dammit. And it's taught by THREE people: I dunno, is that a sensible way to teach a class? Wouldn't that end up being a bit disjointed?
4) Another option is International Commercial of IP, mouthful of a title, coverage rather wide which I am leery of, but does sound really fascinating - but again, sucky exam schedule.
At least none of those classes are in the evening, which was a bit of craziness last term. I hate evening classes. Am not a night person and brain becomes unreceptive after 7-ish. (Turns on again at 11pm for a bit of late night surfing but hey, that's totally different. Also leaving aside the fact that I work at night, because I hate working at night.)
Also, should I take one or two electives? Since I sort of suck as a student, maybe I should take it easy and enrol in only one. But then again, since it looks like no matter what I do, I get a B, it doesn't really matter - one elective, two electives, it's still a B. I mean, if I accept that I'm an academically average student, then I can just go for what I like and what I want to achieve (like finishing the required number of classes in good time instead of taking fewer classes and dragging things out in the hope of improving my GPA) and it would be... more expedient?
The ultimate point of this whole exercise, after all, is to get qualified and get a job. Or isn't it? Is this the kind of profession where people still talk about whether or not you got first-class honours and a 4.0 GPA years after you start working? Does your academic performance follow your career forever?
(And of course I'm operating on the scary assumption that even if my academics aren't super-great, I could still do the work decently.)
Or maybe I'm just indulging in a fit of, ah, self-indulgence and self-pity at the moment. Will calm down by knitting and DECIDE! by end of Friday. Also, note to self: pls do report on internship, also by this week. (Sneak preview: it was fun and boring in parts.) (Left on cutting-room floor: had a headache that lasted for about two weeks in that duration.) (Conclusion: hate my brain.)